Jun 22, 2018 11:02:38 GMT
Post by Brian Harris on Jun 22, 2018 11:02:38 GMT
He walked quickly, breathing heavily, his hand held tightly over his wrist.
”Bitch.” Dennis spat at him. ”Absolute little bitch.”
”Of course, of course you’d go and do something like this.” Sasha sneered.
”Poor baby Brian.” Clara pouted.
”And you couldn’t even do it right.”
”You have injured yourself.” Tect stated plainly.
”We don’t really have to go to the hospital, do we?”
“Yes, we do.” Brian muttered. It was time. It was far past time. He needed help, he just didn’t know it was available. Not until recently. There was some place that could contain him, where he wouldn’t be able to hurt anyone else. He’d known for the past month or so. He’s just been too anxious to go. What if they didn’t give him the right medication? What if there were mind readers? Then they would know what he did and then- He stopped his thoughts right there. He couldn’t think about that right now. He was bleeding out. He needed someone to patch up his wrist so he wouldn’t die, and hopefully someone to patch up his mind so he wouldn’t try to kill himself again.
”But I don’t wanna go! It’s so boring and stupid and I hate it!" Clara whined like a little girl.
As he was walking, he passed by a woman who gave him a well-warranted strange look that made him feel extremely self-conscious. ”She has blond hair.” Tect commented before adding. ”She wants to take your skin." Brian winced and quickened his pace.
”And I hate the clothes tooo, they’re so grossss"
”As if his clothing isn’t always absolutely repulsive.”
”Oh my god, shut up! You should’ve just finished the job. Oh, what am I saying, you could never finish the fucking job. You can never do anything right.”
It had maybe just occurred to him right then that he had no idea where the facility was or where the hell he was going. He was quite drunk, after all, and heavily sedated on heavy-duty non-prescription antipsychotics (although the slash on his wrist had sobered him up quite a bit). He grit his teeth, the pain from his wrist coming to him in waves. Maybe if he just went to a regular hospital and showed them his abilities they would transfer him. They must.
”If you don’t kill anyone first.”
Brian hummed in distressed and quickly switched his direction toward the nearest hospital. He didn’t know he was crossing the street until he heard the screech of tires followed by a loud honk. Brian flinched as if someone threw a knife at him. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” He whimpered, tears starting to stream out of his eyes.
”Little bitch.”
”Pathetic.”
His chest was hurting, tightening, he could feel his breath quickening. He was having a panic attack, but he couldn’t curl up into a ball and cry now. He was dying, and for once, he wasn’t sure he wanted to.
”It’s okay Brian, you can make it!” Clara encouraged, ”I believe in you!” She paused for a second before adding. ”Just don’t go to the crazy hospital, okay?”
He saw the entrance to the ER in the distance. He increased the strength in his leg muscles slightly so he could run there faster. He cleared the parking lot in no time and rushed through the doors. He then slowed his pace, not wanting to bring too much attention to himself and quickly walked over to the front desk, staring downward in the receptionist’s general direction. “Hi I’m Brian I’m a metahuman and I hear voices and I wanna kill myself and I cut myself earlier and I think it’s pretty deep and I…” His voice sped up as he talked, his fast paced mumbling getting quicker and quieter until the woman at the desk couldn’t understand him any more.
“I’m sorry sir, can you repeat that?”
He looked down at his feet and held up his wrist, showing her the deep scratched he’d unintentionally intentionally made on his wrist. It was bleeding quite heavily. “I need help.” He said softly.
Her eyes widened. “Oh.” Things got a bit blurry after that. He’d been bleeding for a while now and he was starting to see black dots around the edge of his vision. He felt light headed and his skin was going pale.
”You are going to pass out.”
He kept hearing voices, real voices (he assumed) saying things like, “Are you with me? Stay with me.” To which he’d make a nondescript noise in response. He eventually found himself lying on a bed hooked up to an IV, the tube lined with red, and a bandage place firmly on his wrist.
”They are giving you blood.” Tect commented.
”Diseased blood.” Dennis hissed. ”Pumping you full of AIDs blood.”
“Will you guys just shut up.” Brian moaned, pressing his hands to his eyes.
“I’m sorry?” A voice came from inside the room. Brian lifted his head up to see a nurse sitting in the room with him, magazine in hand, looking at him concerned. His face flushed.
“Oh, nothing, I was just, uh..I...I-I was...um…” He stammered. Of course he’d be on one to one, of course he would. He’d just tried to kill himself. Stupid. Stupid, stupid, stupid!
”Stupid indeed.” Sasha agreed.
“Hey, it’s okay.” The nurse smiled at him warmly. “You just need to relax right now. That’s all you need to do.”
“Okay, okay…” He breathed, leaning his head back, combing his hands through his hair. Although he knew no matter what he did, there was no way he could relax. His whole body was tense. All those ugly thoughts about the infinite possibilities of what could happen came rushing into his head. He would have to talk about his illness, he always hated that. They wouldn’t give him Haldol, no way, it was outdated. And the alcohol. God, why didn’t he think about the alcohol!? He’s gonna have to actually be sober! And there would definitely be a rough patch with this change in medication. What if he hurt someone during that time? What if they couldn’t stop him? What if they didn’t even send him to the metahuman facility? Oh god, this was a mistake. He should’ve just let himself die.
The nurse, presumably sensing his discomfort, spoke up. “So I heard you said you’re a metahuman.”
“Yep.” Brian replied, strained.
“That’s cool, what powers do you have?” He asked.
“I can...make my muscles grow.”
“Are you part of the program?”
”Bitch, does he look like he’s part of the program?”
Brian shook his head, his lips tightened. “No.”
The nurse, again, seemed to have some kind of sixth sense when it came to Brian’s comfort level, and quickly changed the subject.
They exchanged some small talk for the next couple of hours, slowly distracting Brian from his myriad of anxieties. Every now and then someone would come in, ask him how he was doing, tell him the doctor would be in soon which would send his heart racing, and then leave. After a while, the color came back to his skin and they removed the IV.
Eventually, the doctor came in, a nice but tired looking woman. She asked him the fundamental questions. First the basics; name, date of birth, etc. Then his diagnoses, which he said swiftly and quietly, as much as he hated doing it he was used to talking about this stuff to doctors. She asked if he was on any medication, he told her about the Haldol but he didn’t tell her where he was getting it from and he couldn’t tell her the dosage, as it varied depending on how badly he felt he needed it. She asked if he was using drugs or alcohol, he said yes. She asked if he was experiencing any visual or auditory hallucinations, he tentatively said yes. Finally, she asked the big question, although she phrased it as they always do, as delicately and clinically as possible. “Have you taken any suicidal actions and do you currently have any suicidal ideation?” To which he answered.
“Yes.”
And that was it.
He stayed in the room a while longer before a rather severe looking man came in and said. “The receptionist reported you claimed you were a metahuman.”
“Yeah.” He replied.
“Can you give us a demonstration?”
He took a deep breath, and grew the muscles on his arm until they were three times their original size, then shrunk them back down.
“Alright, I think that proves it.” He said, writing something down on his clipboard. “Does this give you increased strength?”
“Yeah. And speed, when I run, yeah.”
”Big Brian boy is so strong!” Clara gushed.
”Makes you the perfect killing machine, doesn’t it.”
“Good...to...know.” He spoke as he wrote something down meticulously. “Alright, we’ll be right back with you.” And with that he promptly left.
Brian let out a deep and shaky breath. “Hey, it’s okay.” The nurse said, patting his leg. “You ever been to the MNRU?”
“Is that what it’s called?”
“Yeah. I heard it’s a pretty nice place.”
Brian gave him a strained little smile.
About two hours later, they had him stand up and move to a gurney. The nurse waved goodbye, and he waved back, feeling guilty that he never learned his name. They needlessly strapped in his legs, and although it wasn’t restraining, it always felt like it, giving him unpleasant flashbacks to the four point; the closest the modern day can get to a straight jacket. The ultimate sign that you are criminally, dangerously, utterly, insane. Regardless, he didn’t protest as they wheeled him out to an ambulance and drove off, no lights. No one talked to him, they barely even looked at him, which made Brian feel self-conscious, he felt they disliked him.
“They can’t stand to look at you.”
“They’re disgusted by you.”
“Ooh, I bet they’re scared of you.”
“They are not looking at you.”
“They don’t like crazy.”
As they drove, Brian felt his chest tightening, his breath quickening, his mind racing. Tears started to slowly leak out of his eyes, but he kept his panic attack quiet. He didn’t want to bother the paramedics.
By the time they arrive it was somewhere around three or four in the morning. They wheeled him off the ambulance and immediately took him off the gurney.
”I don’t know why they always insist on the gurney.” Sasha commented. ”It’s so superfluous.”
They walked him in, and despite the increased security, it was like any other hospital. He got checked in. Blood taken, urine sample, changed into scrubs made of paper, shown his room (thankfully without a roommate), where he layed in bed in the dark unable to fall asleep and cried.
”Bitch.” Dennis spat at him. ”Absolute little bitch.”
”Of course, of course you’d go and do something like this.” Sasha sneered.
”Poor baby Brian.” Clara pouted.
”And you couldn’t even do it right.”
”You have injured yourself.” Tect stated plainly.
”We don’t really have to go to the hospital, do we?”
“Yes, we do.” Brian muttered. It was time. It was far past time. He needed help, he just didn’t know it was available. Not until recently. There was some place that could contain him, where he wouldn’t be able to hurt anyone else. He’d known for the past month or so. He’s just been too anxious to go. What if they didn’t give him the right medication? What if there were mind readers? Then they would know what he did and then- He stopped his thoughts right there. He couldn’t think about that right now. He was bleeding out. He needed someone to patch up his wrist so he wouldn’t die, and hopefully someone to patch up his mind so he wouldn’t try to kill himself again.
”But I don’t wanna go! It’s so boring and stupid and I hate it!" Clara whined like a little girl.
As he was walking, he passed by a woman who gave him a well-warranted strange look that made him feel extremely self-conscious. ”She has blond hair.” Tect commented before adding. ”She wants to take your skin." Brian winced and quickened his pace.
”And I hate the clothes tooo, they’re so grossss"
”As if his clothing isn’t always absolutely repulsive.”
”Oh my god, shut up! You should’ve just finished the job. Oh, what am I saying, you could never finish the fucking job. You can never do anything right.”
It had maybe just occurred to him right then that he had no idea where the facility was or where the hell he was going. He was quite drunk, after all, and heavily sedated on heavy-duty non-prescription antipsychotics (although the slash on his wrist had sobered him up quite a bit). He grit his teeth, the pain from his wrist coming to him in waves. Maybe if he just went to a regular hospital and showed them his abilities they would transfer him. They must.
”If you don’t kill anyone first.”
Brian hummed in distressed and quickly switched his direction toward the nearest hospital. He didn’t know he was crossing the street until he heard the screech of tires followed by a loud honk. Brian flinched as if someone threw a knife at him. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” He whimpered, tears starting to stream out of his eyes.
”Little bitch.”
”Pathetic.”
His chest was hurting, tightening, he could feel his breath quickening. He was having a panic attack, but he couldn’t curl up into a ball and cry now. He was dying, and for once, he wasn’t sure he wanted to.
”It’s okay Brian, you can make it!” Clara encouraged, ”I believe in you!” She paused for a second before adding. ”Just don’t go to the crazy hospital, okay?”
He saw the entrance to the ER in the distance. He increased the strength in his leg muscles slightly so he could run there faster. He cleared the parking lot in no time and rushed through the doors. He then slowed his pace, not wanting to bring too much attention to himself and quickly walked over to the front desk, staring downward in the receptionist’s general direction. “Hi I’m Brian I’m a metahuman and I hear voices and I wanna kill myself and I cut myself earlier and I think it’s pretty deep and I…” His voice sped up as he talked, his fast paced mumbling getting quicker and quieter until the woman at the desk couldn’t understand him any more.
“I’m sorry sir, can you repeat that?”
He looked down at his feet and held up his wrist, showing her the deep scratched he’d unintentionally intentionally made on his wrist. It was bleeding quite heavily. “I need help.” He said softly.
Her eyes widened. “Oh.” Things got a bit blurry after that. He’d been bleeding for a while now and he was starting to see black dots around the edge of his vision. He felt light headed and his skin was going pale.
”You are going to pass out.”
He kept hearing voices, real voices (he assumed) saying things like, “Are you with me? Stay with me.” To which he’d make a nondescript noise in response. He eventually found himself lying on a bed hooked up to an IV, the tube lined with red, and a bandage place firmly on his wrist.
”They are giving you blood.” Tect commented.
”Diseased blood.” Dennis hissed. ”Pumping you full of AIDs blood.”
“Will you guys just shut up.” Brian moaned, pressing his hands to his eyes.
“I’m sorry?” A voice came from inside the room. Brian lifted his head up to see a nurse sitting in the room with him, magazine in hand, looking at him concerned. His face flushed.
“Oh, nothing, I was just, uh..I...I-I was...um…” He stammered. Of course he’d be on one to one, of course he would. He’d just tried to kill himself. Stupid. Stupid, stupid, stupid!
”Stupid indeed.” Sasha agreed.
“Hey, it’s okay.” The nurse smiled at him warmly. “You just need to relax right now. That’s all you need to do.”
“Okay, okay…” He breathed, leaning his head back, combing his hands through his hair. Although he knew no matter what he did, there was no way he could relax. His whole body was tense. All those ugly thoughts about the infinite possibilities of what could happen came rushing into his head. He would have to talk about his illness, he always hated that. They wouldn’t give him Haldol, no way, it was outdated. And the alcohol. God, why didn’t he think about the alcohol!? He’s gonna have to actually be sober! And there would definitely be a rough patch with this change in medication. What if he hurt someone during that time? What if they couldn’t stop him? What if they didn’t even send him to the metahuman facility? Oh god, this was a mistake. He should’ve just let himself die.
The nurse, presumably sensing his discomfort, spoke up. “So I heard you said you’re a metahuman.”
“Yep.” Brian replied, strained.
“That’s cool, what powers do you have?” He asked.
“I can...make my muscles grow.”
“Are you part of the program?”
”Bitch, does he look like he’s part of the program?”
Brian shook his head, his lips tightened. “No.”
The nurse, again, seemed to have some kind of sixth sense when it came to Brian’s comfort level, and quickly changed the subject.
They exchanged some small talk for the next couple of hours, slowly distracting Brian from his myriad of anxieties. Every now and then someone would come in, ask him how he was doing, tell him the doctor would be in soon which would send his heart racing, and then leave. After a while, the color came back to his skin and they removed the IV.
Eventually, the doctor came in, a nice but tired looking woman. She asked him the fundamental questions. First the basics; name, date of birth, etc. Then his diagnoses, which he said swiftly and quietly, as much as he hated doing it he was used to talking about this stuff to doctors. She asked if he was on any medication, he told her about the Haldol but he didn’t tell her where he was getting it from and he couldn’t tell her the dosage, as it varied depending on how badly he felt he needed it. She asked if he was using drugs or alcohol, he said yes. She asked if he was experiencing any visual or auditory hallucinations, he tentatively said yes. Finally, she asked the big question, although she phrased it as they always do, as delicately and clinically as possible. “Have you taken any suicidal actions and do you currently have any suicidal ideation?” To which he answered.
“Yes.”
And that was it.
He stayed in the room a while longer before a rather severe looking man came in and said. “The receptionist reported you claimed you were a metahuman.”
“Yeah.” He replied.
“Can you give us a demonstration?”
He took a deep breath, and grew the muscles on his arm until they were three times their original size, then shrunk them back down.
“Alright, I think that proves it.” He said, writing something down on his clipboard. “Does this give you increased strength?”
“Yeah. And speed, when I run, yeah.”
”Big Brian boy is so strong!” Clara gushed.
”Makes you the perfect killing machine, doesn’t it.”
“Good...to...know.” He spoke as he wrote something down meticulously. “Alright, we’ll be right back with you.” And with that he promptly left.
Brian let out a deep and shaky breath. “Hey, it’s okay.” The nurse said, patting his leg. “You ever been to the MNRU?”
“Is that what it’s called?”
“Yeah. I heard it’s a pretty nice place.”
Brian gave him a strained little smile.
About two hours later, they had him stand up and move to a gurney. The nurse waved goodbye, and he waved back, feeling guilty that he never learned his name. They needlessly strapped in his legs, and although it wasn’t restraining, it always felt like it, giving him unpleasant flashbacks to the four point; the closest the modern day can get to a straight jacket. The ultimate sign that you are criminally, dangerously, utterly, insane. Regardless, he didn’t protest as they wheeled him out to an ambulance and drove off, no lights. No one talked to him, they barely even looked at him, which made Brian feel self-conscious, he felt they disliked him.
“They can’t stand to look at you.”
“They’re disgusted by you.”
“Ooh, I bet they’re scared of you.”
“They are not looking at you.”
“They don’t like crazy.”
As they drove, Brian felt his chest tightening, his breath quickening, his mind racing. Tears started to slowly leak out of his eyes, but he kept his panic attack quiet. He didn’t want to bother the paramedics.
By the time they arrive it was somewhere around three or four in the morning. They wheeled him off the ambulance and immediately took him off the gurney.
”I don’t know why they always insist on the gurney.” Sasha commented. ”It’s so superfluous.”
They walked him in, and despite the increased security, it was like any other hospital. He got checked in. Blood taken, urine sample, changed into scrubs made of paper, shown his room (thankfully without a roommate), where he layed in bed in the dark unable to fall asleep and cried.